My old friends

Every one had friends, same as everyone may also have enemies, for my case i didn't have much friends, at least what people call best friends.

This is my life, in high school i wanted to be one of the people that stands out but, turns out i did but not for the right reasons. My friends, i didn't have any real friends, just people that hang out with when they got no one to go to, well...... thats life, when people need something they'll call you, but when they don't they moved on as quick as money in my wallet.

i had many kinds of friends in high school, ass holes, vain people, the cool people, and they people that i hang with, well i try to hang with. For me the ass holes would always be the few that ruined my high school years, and so on.

To me i don't really care if this get read, the cool people would always be these few, Gustine, he is the person that i think is really smart and knows how to talk when he needs to talk, i really respect him, i don't know how he does it, maybe he is just the class clown, the girls are all so attracted to him but, i really envy him.

Next is Zhi Lin, every one has a extremely hot girl in their class and she is it, she is kind smart funny, and why wont i say it she is the kind of girl i wish i could have, but i guess i really wasn't part of their in crowd, i remember back on my birthday, i didn't get anything for my birthday, but she out of all the people that i know got me a mug, it just showed me a little hope out there for me. When life seemed down she showed me a little bit of something for me to live for, and i did it really made me smile. But as every hot perfect girl there is always a guy by their side either a best friend that will never approve of you, or a boyfriend. Last thing i have to say to this extraordinary girl is a big THANK YOU!!!

Another is Eng wei, he is a nice person to be with, i know he tried to reach out to me as a friend before but i guess i was to blind to see it too much ego, and i guess i thought i was better, Eng wei and me go why back, to the years of primary school, we may not have talk much but i wish i could have told you one thing now, i'm really sorry if i irritated you bro. and thanks for being there for me last time.

There are just so many people to go on for friends, but today i'm gonna just stick with this three, they stuck with me and bared my fucked up attitude and accepted me for who i am.

Even though we may not be friends now, i hope in the future we have a better chance, And i have new friends now by the way they are just cool.

Last i could remember

The last i could remember was well during my secondary years, when i was 13.

everyone just left primary school and moving towards high school, hoping things would be different, well it was. 

When it all started, the first few weeks were normal if i could recall, it was time for us to choose our extra curricular activities, well normal guys at that age would think hey i wanna stand out and be cool, and probably join the basket ball team, soccer team, or socialize more with the interact club or Leo club.

For me things were very different, all my old friends had different views like joining scouts or st.Johns, well for me i felt embraced at first, i joined the cheerleading team. "wow" a guy doing cheerleading, it was fun for the first few months then i started to noticed that cheerleading was taking up a lot of my time well thats for cheerleading. 

Now back to me, i was a extremely vain person, with an enormous ego that needed a lot of attention, yes i admit it i was a person who people call "LOA" lack of attention. wanted to be popular liked to brag and show off when given the chance, but for me, i never had money, i never had fame. I simply just wanted to be seen and wishing that i was the person that every one would invite out, like the in-crowd. I have aways hated the people in the in-crowd in my high school, to top it off i had cheerleading practice which made life hard for me.

You could say that i was an extreme brat, or and annoying ass hole that no one likes, but i really do try my best, at least i think i do. In class i was not one of the most outstanding students, instead more like the failures, and to top it off i had no excuse, just blame my laziness. 

During this period of my life i had a girl friend hard expect, she was the cutest and one of my best ex's currently, her name is "Vivian Tan" from Klang MGS, we were together for two and a half years. well she really made me happy we did not kiss but, yea as every one says puppy love is like that. After one year came disloyalty, i felt that she didn't care, and yea needless to say, i guess she didn't, she had another guy coincidentally named Chris. 

Right at the time i thought, "meh i could get a better girl" well that was not exactly true. i moved on pretty quick and I just wanted to look for the perfect girl, girls like Chia Nee, Mei sin, Li Fern, Florence, Ee Yen, and many other girls that came after, i started to become a play. Girls kept a distance, names came out man whore, dick, black sheep, etc. 

My life was a downward spiral, in my second year of high school, well i learned that people still do try to interact with me giving me a chance to make friends, but cheerleading, the practices were taking up all my time the commitment was unbearable, my friends were going on trips, i was back at school doing flips, i felt sad, my friends were gaming, and my house...... didn't had internet FML.

I'll stop here at the middle of my second year, my life has never been great but i always still try to smile.